Yes, God is my everything. Yes, I have a great family. Yes, I have friends that love me.
So, why don't I feel as happy as I should be?
I have happy moments, but then it passes and I'm back to feeling like blah. Shouldn't having God make me happy? Why aren't I happy? What's missing?
Today I took a hip hop class and it's been like a year since I took a class because of something that happened with my knee. I felt so nervous coming back to class. Most of the people there don't know me. Only some just recognize me but don't actually know who I am.
Anyways, class started and when I learned the choreography I felt so amazing like "I got this!" It just feels amazing to do something you love. Sure, sometimes I messed up but I kept practicing the choreography. When I danced I wasn't thinking so much on what step was coming next, I just tried to go with the music.
A glimpse of my hip hop class. I'm the one with the ponytail and the military pants...
Well, when class was over, I went out to eat with my family. I felt tired and again felt like blah and I sometimes thought to myself... "I just came out of a class doing what I really love and now I feel like blah? Maybe it's because I'm tired." But was that really the reason?
It's frustrating wanting to live a happy life, especially now that I'm only 20 years old, but time just passes by and nothing changes. I feel the same way almost everyday. I am not completely happy!
